Tuesday, September 15, 2009
I have relax.Cool down and thought over.
These weekend what am i going to do?
priority is of course to win him back. :)
start afresh and both try to comprimise. :)
this would be the best :)
another thing is hypnosis.
This have been in my mine for very very long.
Just done a few research and what i was thinking all along was right.
Some memories can be hidden or erase.
I can use this to forget him and let him go.
So at least the one I love most can be happy. :)
But well I need him to be by my side for now.
At least awhile before I had the money and go for the treatment :)
After that I want to sign treaty with him.
I remember don't like to have god brother or sister.
But that time he was courting me.
I proposed this idea.
But he rejected because he want to be only couple.
So now.
Since there is no turn back.
Ok fine. :)
He will be my God Brother.
Take care of me like what he promise but not as my lover.
Because I treasure this relationship alot.
I hope in end we still can keep in touch in some special status.
I don't want to be friends because I know i might have false hope if eventually I remember everything after I hypnotise.
And this brother-sister relationship will let us know that forever.
There is no turn back.
Being stranger I know one day if I were to miss him or remember him all those stupid things wil come out again.
So for the sake of me and him.
Or should I say him to be happy forever and ever.
I had decided.
I will take him to be my brother if we break up :)
Yes, no doubt I love him.
No doubt I don't want to let go.
No doubt I will agree to anything to save this relationship.
But if in the end he really don't want to continue this relationship.
He don't want to continue to love me.
I have to let him go.
He have to be happy.
I can be sad.
I can be miserable.
I can go die or whatever.
But the one I love most which is him.
Lim ma don.
He have to live happily ever after :)
if 070707 have to be a memory.
I hope it will be a good memory in his mind.
Whereas yes it is the best memories in my life.
But well.
I have to forget in order to let go.
I hope the 2years can also be the most wonderful days and meaningiest days in his life.
For that we will be friends till eternity if in the end we can't be husband and wife till eternity.
Because I had always long to have a older brother to protect me and love me as a sister.
Hope we can be together my deardear.
But if we can't like I promise I will let you go :) But I need some time and I am sorry to say you have to standby me for awhile before you are freed.
I miss your beautiful smile ... 8:25 PM
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