Friday, July 31, 2009
the chain....is broken for the second time... no more fixing... no point fixing...its time for me to change............
i am not fit for them? nvm...
always buy le u make spoil?
nvm.......
i am going back :)
hui dao guo qu....
i wun let u know.....
i wun let u notice....
maybe when u happen to notice...
its way too late........
i say before....
no more.....
since to u....
the vow and etc is not impt....
u can treat me lyk tt...
den forget it.....
i am determined to leave this time round...
not in a chaos manner....
but slowly quietly....
nothing.....
just because... our love is not there..
just because u never cherish......
to u is nothing..
lyk u say...
action speak louder than word...
you yi tian.....
ni jiang fa xian ....
wo bu hui zai ni shen bian...
bu hui zai ni de xin li...
chong jing tian kai shi...
ni hui fa xian da da...
da da de gai bian...
wo bu hui shi wo.....
I miss your beautiful smile ... 8:32 AM
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Haiz... dunno why maybe i over sensitive but the feeling of inferior that has been gone for long or hidden has came back.. I dunno what to do... because of a msg i become so intense... and thoughts start to wonder....ytd.. someone msg my dear... was a friendly chat asking whether is my dear continuing his job... well this gal name is ERH XIN MEI... they exchange hp no as they need to contact on the first day. She was the one who first day bring my dear to the place to work as instruction given by the boss becox my dear was a new staff... apparently i dunno who on earth the one who msg my dear is as no name is being save... so i thought maybe some guy his collegue? so i called... then a gal pick up.. apparently i supposed she heard my voice rather than my bf voice so she pretend to keep hello~~~ den when i raise my voice she pretend that she heard... i ask her who is she... she said " i am his friend"...
Upon hearing this word friend my temper hit limit .... who on the earth is she to make friend with my boi? i mean i ask my boi.. he dun even regard her as a friend.. :@!!!!
ok so.. i ask friend? got name wad... wad ur name la... den she erm erm erm then finally she say her name xin mei!!!! then i was fucking pissed cox.. this bloody gal no. i have deleted from my bf hp.... so i wonder she msg my boi for? well nvm i was still calm... i thought maybe my boi ask her to take the form and etc... so i asked... why did u msg him? she say juz ask him whether is he continue working.. so i ask oh hhhh ok.. he ask u to take form for him is it? she say NO... this is where my volcano erupted!!!!! (I WAS THINKING NO DEN U MSG HIM FOR FUCK?) den i asked... so did he msg you? ( i thought maybe my boi msg her mah so she msg back nothing wrong) then she replied!!!! erm no... den I hit limit liao.. I say nvm... ok then bb...
so i confronted my bf.. went to check his list of msging pple.. then found tt bitch number.. which is number after his dad.. so which is a few days back.. so i ask my boi.. why u say nv msg her... den got her contact in ur msging list? den he said juz msg er to ask her help him get the form... so i say den why she say nv... den he say how i knw... well i have fucking no evidence.. so i cant do anythng... he delete his sent items... den i went on... how u gt her number since i deleted? he say get from others.. but wad make me pissed is... WHY NEED HER TO HELP HIM TAKE FORM?? CANNOT ASK OTHERS MEH? WHO THE FUCK IS SHE?
ok then he diam diam... follow by he did nasty thign to me... though he apologise and etc.. bt i was damm hurt... nearly really end this relationship.. I meant it real... not childish act..
after that ask him to msg tt gal not to call him or msg him again he die oso dun wan.. make me damm pissed!! well i do understand lyk v. wad bt i seriously dun lyk tt gal ok!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
den i msg... in a v. nice way... in the end the gal never reply....
i dunno why.... bt i felt inferior... and the gal msg him during his army time? cox tue dear suppose to be in amry but he with me... cox mc.... count herself suay...
but well.. dunno why i feel lyk letting go this rs. ya i have no confidence and trust regardless of myself or my bf... i dunno wad going on between them maybe nothing.... just that i over sensitive or maybe.. tt is really something.... another reason for me being so sensitive is also because my dear lyk to delete other pple msg... so how would i know??
i dunno.... bt if sat..i going see things... and if my boi lie that she is damm fuckign fat when i see that she is not... maybe i will end this rs... i v.v.v. tired... i know my boi love me alot... but i dunno... really dunno... other than me... is he seeing anybody else? fond of any1 else? or lyk or wadeva shit... or even friends...
i became over sensitive and possesive.... this bitch make wad i try to hide and forget appear again... she make me doubt on my rs again.......... i dun deny tt the factor of trust in our rs is weak..
dunno why went to yahoo and search for her name and etc.... found out that... she is from anderson JC... should be JC1 if I am not wrong.... full name ERH XIN MEI... well she better dun contact my bf anymore... if i find that again..... I cfm make it v. ugly in her work place... and my dear... u can prepare for a breakup...
suddenly.. dunno why i thnk off those number without names keep appear on my dear phone... who on earth are they? dear keep say army personnel....
i going to check this time round... every single one......... if one more time................ i call and is a gal who answer............ my next post will be on breaking up........
rem... if i result to breakup i will never turn back.. i cant stand betray... not even once... never.... even it is just friend... i gave u chance but if u lied so dun blame me for that.............
I miss your beautiful smile ... 10:11 AM
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
haix....... tmr IB ICA2 30% OMG.... haix.. well... i hope.. to burn the whole book and drink it like "fu shui" so that i will able to combined it with my heart and mind.. den answer all the question within that 1 and a half hour... scary leh... is lyk no difference as compare to an exam nor...actual was kinda angry with deardear de... but leh.. he put my msg tone as he recorded voice...
"Laopo wo ai ni" den make me cannot angry... cox upon hearing his voice... i feel sooo sweet nor...
wan to angry oso cannt... lolx.. evil him.. evil trick...
he say is a form of his xinyi.. when he is not with me at least I can listen to him say I love u... everytime.. ^^
ok... chater 3 liao.. 4 more to go.. sian sia......... i dunno why suddenly i dun feel lyk studying.. and i have decided to join moe next semester.. lazy to find job for the moment bahx... haix..
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:45 AM
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
Well... its been so long.. that we have come this far... we have been together for 365days X 2... although all these while we have never fail to quarrel... but nevertheless.. we love each other deep enough to endure...
so yesterday we went for virtual rider.. $3 per pax.. were like erm? mend for kids.. :x but we just took it.. cox i want.. kinda fun... 1st time took that also.. those who are as childish as me can try :P
For lunch we went to kuishinbo... $20.90 per pax.. COX we eat for 1hr only.. WAHAHAHA... ok he say express price... he is nagging beside me for food.. noisy hor? :X not bad though.. but nothing fascinating.. he say disappointing.
Inside the rider
outside the rider..Its~~~~ Archery time!!!!
Den headed to archery.. so fun... haha.. i got higher den him :x he got 26 lyk tt.. I got 98 ... ok la.. is opposite.. he got the 90+ play cheat de.. i got 20+ use own power de.. :P :X well he is nagging now.. dun care k? den we headed to arcade... spend $10.. but get nothing.. cox he lousy .. :X den went to watch ice age 3.. sooo cuute lol.. is 3D de.... Heex.. the baby elephant sooo cute.... mammoth <--- he wan de.. SO NOISY!! SHUT UP...
My score :26
His score : 98
After that we went to the toys'r'us to look FOR MY DOLLDOLL... u know why i caps? COX THAT IDIOT IS DAMM IRRITATING BESIDE ME LA!! but don't have..
den we went to carrefour... wanted to buy the cupcake thngy... but nvr.. cox i wan to buy doll.. den i say see vivo got not... if got den means i fated to buy.. but never lo... sad.. nvm.. will go buy 1 day.. :X
The transformer!!!@ vivo toys'r's
Our couple tee
den went vivo city.. go change my bag.. but tt ccb cashier.. say never bring receipt cannot.. kuai lan lo.. i curse her!! MAKE ME ANGRY.. TYPICAL CHINA CHICKEN! $1 for 1.
On 6/7/09.. he bring me go manicure and pedicure on midnight.. sweet thought of him.. was touch.. :) :-*
den went to buy my doll doll.. :P Cute hor??? YAY.. well.. i chose damm long.. cox the accessories all gone... sad.. nevermind i can go others place to find!!!! den i bought the $79.90 doll.. with toilet bowl and others.. :P lalal.. sooo OOO cUuuTEEE.. i want the other accesorries oso hor...!! understand? U BESIDE ME DUN KAYKAY!!! U KKJ...
ok.. den went home.. quarrel as usual.. c lor.. people.. 2years liao still wanna quarrel with me.. ming ku lo.. :"( sobsob.. u all dunno my sorrow lo.. :'( :P
he is nagging aGAIN.....!!!! =.=
den he bought a shou hu shen for me.. a t-shirt... a love seed handphone strap... a bag.. a bracelet.. puzzle tt i dun really like.. but ok la.. is a gift from him..den he keep complaining say he chose v. long..
Love you k? though u always bully me lo.. nvm.. i ming ku :X
and ya!! got selfmade card.. actually was v. happy and surprise de.. but as usual.. wrong!!! chinese word!! haiz.... though this time round got improve 1 nia.. .. but haix!! muz jing bu k? but v. cute and sweet.. Love u.. this i s my dear.. who chinese kns... but still write chinese for me.. k.. i go home put pic .. bb~~~~~
he is nagging aGAIN.....!!!! =.=
den he bought a shou hu shen for me.. a t-shirt... a love seed handphone strap... a bag.. a bracelet.. puzzle tt i dun really like.. but ok la.. is a gift from him..den he keep complaining say he chose v. long..
Love you k? though u always bully me lo.. nvm.. i ming ku :X
and ya!! got selfmade card.. actually was v. happy and surprise de.. but as usual.. wrong!!! chinese word!! haiz.... though this time round got improve 1 nia.. .. but haix!! muz jing bu k? but v. cute and sweet.. Love u.. this i s my dear.. who chinese kns... but still write chinese for me.. k.. i go home put pic .. bb~~~~~
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:34 AM
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