hmm.. today interhse bball.. quite a fun one.. soo long nvr see pple play bball le.. of cox i went there to watch partly is becox i know he will be there bah.. bt really really seriously hurt sia... when he look at me.. he looked so different.... lyk i am an irritating person.. idin't even talk to him or what loh.. i stand far far away from him leh.. see him sit with the gals all tt feel v. uncomfortable lo..:(

den i ask one gal to help me see wad the score now becox he is there i dun wana go near him.. tt gal tell me the score and SUAN me.... she say u com here support hu? the white t-shirt 1 arh? (only 1 white t-shirt guy dere.. super fat and digusting lo.. sorry) i say no lah.. thise green shirts de.. my class de ma.. den she giggle... as if i dun hav the right to see handsome guy lyk tt.... angry angry super angry lo.. she think she slim she not bad looking can say pple arh? she think he lyk her ... therefore she hav the ritze to say me izzit? humph.. i will change.. i wanna look better den her!! i wanna becom slim!!! i wanna study harder....!!!! if not tt i wan to win her or wad.. but she really too much le... hurt pple still giggle... whr gt tix type of pple de...?

PS: in the process of forgetting you...

Ta da.. today is my first day of revision.. well though it may be quite late le.. but at least i gt revise lo.. well.. quite scared though.. Afraid that i couldn't do well for it.. also afraid that I might not get use to it.... becox will be different environment.. and all thox friends of mine now.. in future we may not contact le.. :(

As o'lvl is coming.. my times with him also getting lesser and lesser... it is a fortune as it will be end of my torture? or it will get worse as i may not get to see him annymore.. can't get to know his daily life.. chances also of being friend again also wil also drop dramatically bah... life TOTALLY without him.. what would it be like ne?? i dunno wor.. sigh.. okok.. i know u guyz saw thiz will think tt i am a very stupid gal..bt can't help it ma.. u thnk i wan meh.. :'(

Anyway left a few months with him only .. i will treasure it de.. mayb.. mayb again.. i will chose de same school as him ba.. depends oso.. see how.. cox mayb diff course all tt.. cant gt in the same school with him.. bt if the school he wanted to go is one of my choice i would probably chose it ba.. :)

gambatte.. all O and N level students..^.^

hmm.. i remember during 05 december.. I went to NAFA campus 3 for open house.. Inside the person room I saw a very handsome guy.. he intro briefly the instruments to us and asked as whether me or my friend had any other enquries.. I asked him whether he could play.. and he played for us.. the song was wonderful.. it was very smooth and everything was in place.. a touching song though.. he played quite a long 1 but only me was listening to him.. my friend wasn't . not the tour guide .. nt his friend also.. the tour guide broke the atmosphere and said: "wah.. he played until so long arh??still dun wan to stop sia.." his friend replied,:ya loh.. just now thw two gals ask him play he only played a few notes den say thx u liao.. thix gal ask him play he play until soo long still dun wan to stop.." He ignored what they said and continue playing.. few minutes later.. the tour guide spoil my mood again.. :he really dun wann to stop arh?? play untill soo long liao..:""ya lor.. i ask him play he also never play until so long.." Finally, the guy end his song and turn to the friends and say.. "lyk tt can ma??" den after he turn to me and smiled.. I thank him.. and tt the end of my tour.. I didn't know that xylophone can played such an wonderful piece of music.. Moreover he use four sticks to play.. (2 sticks in 1 hand) Professional...^.^

well though tt moment was short but was sweet as well as romantic.. No one had ever play a song just for me.. And wad the two guyz said was true.. before us.. we saw two gal and he only play a few notes for them... well.. i hope can saw him again.. and maybe make friends with him.. ( u guyz dun thnk too much.. friends only la!1) I Think tt in future my boyfriend muz know how to play instruments like piano.. guitar.. volin.. xylophone..saxophone.. organ.. and others... if he can sing oso can.. heex.. greedy hor me.. haha.. kk i end here le.. bb.. cya..

to be continue....

o'lvl and prelim are just around the corner.. but i still haven study yet wor... confirm die le la.. still trying to discipline myself to study.. My aim for my L1R5 i wanna get 15 points.. so i will try my best to get it...

Me hor.. quite fat leh.. i wanna to slim down as soon as possible.. if not gt occasion hor.. whr dress not nice.. heex.. i have to lose 5 more kg den i will be safe le... no matter wad by end of tiz yr i wan to 5 kg.. Cannot let those idiots look down.. humph.. ( i use idiots becox if u actually knw wad they said bout me.. u wld knw y i am soo angry le...)

Anyway now.. what matter to me most.. is my result and my weight.. i will jia you to achieve my goal de.. :)

Sometimes I run
Sometimes I hide
Sometimes I'm scared of you
But all I really want
Is to hold you tight
Treat you right,
Be with you day and night
Baby, all I need is time

I don't know how to live
Without your love
I was born to make you happy
cuz your the only one
Within my heart
I was born to make you happy
always and forever you and me
thats the way our life should be
I don't know how to live
Without your love
I was born to make you happy

title:很想说
Singer: li sheng jie

(plz change ur encoding to chinese simplified to read the lyric:P)


you are so beautiful
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
爱与美
难道
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
终于懂了
真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
my love
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笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心走了彼此不信任了
终于懂了
真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了
就有坚持理由
别说我会留在路口不会走
爱你会直到最后
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以复合

lolx.. today i am UTTERLY dissappointed with him.. My frien ask him to pass me a book.. he soo near bt he die also dun wanna pass.. lyk my book gt poison lyk tt.. argh.. den when i pass my book back to my frien.. my aiming nt gd mah... and guess wad happen?? :P ta da.. the book hit his back lolz.. very funny sia.. pple there laughing.. i gt say sorry la... bt dunno he heard it or nt.. anyway the book drop nxt to him.. my frien ask him help him pick up bt he dun wan loh.. so mean de.. he still die also dun wanna pick up.. Den he dunno mumble what thing.. den i say sorry la.. wo yu bu shi gu yi de... dunno whether he heard it or not.. but anyway really disappointed sia...

PS: wo tao yan ni la...humph...

wo bu zhi dao zhi ji zai xiang shen me.. ye bu zhi dao wo ke yi zuo xie shen me.. wo zhi zhi dao.. tu ran jian jue de hao ji mo hao gu de.. ke neng shi mei you ni de pei ban.. ye ke neng hai bu xi guan.. ye ke neng shen me dou bu shi.. zhi shi dan cun de xiang zhao ren pei.. ni bu zai de ri zi nan mian you xie ji mo... ying wei mei you hui na yang de pei wo.. ye mei you ren hui zhi dao wo xu yao de shi shen mo.. you shi.. zhen xiang pao dao ni de qian mian gao su ni.. wo qi shi hen jiu hen jiu yi qian jiu ai shang ni le... ke shi.. mei you zhe ge yong qi.. ying wei.. wo shen me dou bu shi.. you na lai de zhi ge shuo ne??

ni bu zai wo de shen bian.. wo de shi jie xian ru hei an... kan bu dao guang ming ye kan bu dao xi wang... zhi neng zai hei an li deng dai.. deng dai ni de zai ci dao lai ba wo dai chu qu....

PS: i luv u......

today after dinner... on the way home.. i saw him wor.. actually should be very sweet de but becox of the ADY YEO KENG RONG.. spoil everything.. saw me say suuy.. he thnk i not suay arh.. lyk tt nvm.. still shout sooo loudly to him.. "hey.. C... ur woman!" i want to faint sia.. make me soo paiseh.. well.. didn't expect to see him wor.. quite surprised.. it has been soo long when we meet in such coincidence le... :P

hmmm.. sittin alone in the bus makes me think through alot of things.. I actually for all tiz while thought tt he did not change he character.. at least i believed tt, even though we no longer contact..
but after tix few days.. i actually saw another u.. the 'devil' side of u.. u had always been a good student wo will always do ur, respect the teacher another things.. bt from wad i seen is totally different.. i know that u r a queit person who dun lyk to talk much.. bt sometimes u lyk to joke around.. u dun really lyk to share ur personal stuff wif others.. and always have a look tt pple will think tt u r anti-social.. bt actually u r nt really tt.. it juz ur character.. in fact u r a very caring and kind guy.. frienz around me even though feel tt u r those very queit type but still hopes to be frien wif u.. u might seems ignoring everything around u ... bt actually u r a very observant guy... u will take note of things around u in ur heart.. and use it to help others whenever they need...

however.. things change so fast.. and i didn't know... maybe.. i actually knew it long ago.. i actually knew the outcome.. but i juz dun wish to face the reality tt u had totally change.. no longer the one that i knew in the start.. As i hope mayb someday a miracle will happened.. we will go back lyk the past.. inside the bus.. i recall alot.. i actually change alot.. and is all becox of u.. bt mayb.. it is meaningless now... :)i juz hope tt.. someday..somewhere..sometime.. u might juz recall tt i actually existed in ur life... mayb nt a gd chracter in it..but at least i tried to do so...

hmm.. today in history lesson suddenly feel sick wor.. whole body feel very uncomfortable and feel giddy... In class lyk wan to vomit lyk tt.. friends around me saw me lyk tt come and care for... feel warm wor.. There are some pple I must thank.. Hui Hui and Brenda.. help me massage and take care of me.. sorry wor.. Trouble you galz.. Gilbert and Ady... thz for fanning... and all the history students for ur concern.. thz u very much.. xiexie ... ^.^

Stay happy as a class^.^

I dunno i really dunno.. i really feel like crying now.. I am so confused.. honestly i am a gal hu is very esay to cry.. i can watch smthng, read a book or thnk of smthng den i will cry le.. Always wen memories surface my mind.. When i remember my memories with u when i was young was so sweet but to me now was so sad because memories and the present is a totally different thing.. I really dunno wad to say.. I juz wanna to go back to the past.. I dun care no freedom.. but at least i gt u.. rem u promise me tt no matter wad we wld always b frienz? bt y nt nw?? is being frienz really tt difficult nw? i really wanna to forget u.. u knw? bt i can't.. i dun bear to erase all the memories even thogh smtimes i wld lie to myself tt u doesn't matter to me anymore.. bt it not.. u lyk controlling my life lyk tt.. when you laugh i will feel happy..

eventhough i fall for another guy.. bt i dun really knw i lyk him or not.. even if i really do.. we wun have any ending de lo.. he wun lyk me de.. last time i tend to rely on you too much.. whenever any problem i meet i would not solve myself.. i would always ask you.. this made me cant be independent..
i really dunno wad to do... i am so damm confused nw lo.. can you juz gav me a call or a msg.. and tell me.. dun cry le la? i am here wad?? I really can' survive without you by my side.. eventhough i go through 3 yrs wifout you beside.. bt those 3 years were like torture to me.. not really a true frien by my side.. even though smtimes sm of my friends will cheer me up.. bt tt doesn't really cheer me up.. they dun really understand me.. u are the only one in tiz year hu knw how to talk to me.. Hu knw wad i want.. hu knw hw to keep me feel needed..

I dunno in a world completely wifout u wad can i do??

PS:I cry le...

hmm.. i thnk i fall for sm1 le leh.. hw?? sm1 hu i nvr meet b4.. bt knw for a few years..
bt i not sure whtr i lyk him or not leh.. faint sia,,, hw?? haiz.. even if i lyk him i oso no chance de la.. his tiao jian can say very gd ba?? haiz.. sooo much higher den me lo.. i dun thnk wo pei de shang ta lo... haix... do i lyk him?? ans me!! well.. anyway .. as 4 nw.. we can chat wif each othr wen we r free.. i am happi wif tt le..

zhi you he zhui ai de ren cai neng wu chu zhui mei li de xuan zhuan.. so romantic sia... i oso wan.. ^.^