Sunday, June 29, 2008
hmm... i seriously wonder.. what does love mean to you guyz??? i been in a relationship but i dun feel what i thought i suppose to feel... quarrel is like my everyday life.. though i love him la... but i seriously cannt take it at all... =.=let him treat me lyk tt... %@#%$^##$^#&^*&&*... k la i treat him worse but haix.... i wanna LEAVE LEAVE LEAVE THIS PLACE FOR A MOMENT LO... but he dun let.. i am lyk so sad la.. sobsob....
I miss your beautiful smile ... 8:27 PM
Friday, June 20, 2008
for now i just wish to be alone... all alone by myself with no promise breaker with no one who will annoyed me... no one who will hurt me and disappoint me.. I need to be alone ... to cool myself down.. and to relax... too much things that I have to think off... too many things I have to deal with... I am really tired... I need some rest too.... my heart again stopped.... no beating... no feeling... maybe ya...? feeling of sadness only... only that and nothing else..Do I still wanna be with him?? honestly i dunnoo.... the feeling just faded... times and times again when i tried to believe.. he shattered everything.. every single thing.... you know maybe??? once dead.. never revived... my heart died once.. although it didnt revived.. but deep down there at a corner.. all the hurts done to me, I still have feelings.... I just wanna seriously cool down and rethink about this r/s... if can... I hope this r/s can juz fade away with no quarrel or anything I do not wish to happen.... I just wanna have my OWN life... only me and me... no frien no family no loved ones... for this moment... I wish to be anti-social.. live by my own.. do everything or carry all the burden by myself....
I am turning into a devil day by day... especially when he disappoint me.. this is not what I want... I hope to turn back the times and return t the pure and innocent me... but now... no more.. no longer that star anymore... you know? not even chun can change me... not I don't want just that I cant.. dun ask me why... cox.. I seriously dunno why... hate me leave me whatever go ahead... honestly now.. nothing matter much to me.. maybe I would like to try once to be "huai nu ren".. ? dunnoo... hopefully I can have my own world.. or some times for me to cool down.. I need that.. If not I will become crazy soon.. especially when with him.... he tolerance... begain to disappear and turn back to the person I DETEST... I dunoo... I juz dunoooooo......... can I have some time alone? Hopefully I can go for the exchange programme... cool myself down... relax myself...
PS: I am really hurt... just too hurt to do anything.... ni zhi dao ma?
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:08 AM
Monday, June 09, 2008
hmmm... today deardear finally finished his bmt le... and me replacing the receiptionist at lexmark again.. well everything was kinda mess.. =.= the gal who replce ytd.. nv do anything at all.. =.= den today i doin all the things.. i was like wth la.. and my guniea pig give birth le.. to 2 baby piggy.. 1 is pure brown and little white spot here and there.... another one is mixture of white and dark brown..hmm well started my little business... bt business nt v. good.. sobsob.. bt nvm.. i decided to try the products my own.. so if got effect den alot of pple will buy heex... will be posting my picture today.. and next tuesday will post the picture again for the effect.. hope have result bahx.. i spend alot of $$ buying the products worx.. if no result den i will search for other better products!!!! ehtono gambatte ne!!! ^^
I miss your beautiful smile ... 9:39 PM
Thursday, June 05, 2008
kinda long since i last blog le bahx.. lolz.... doubt tt u guyz still reading bt well.. juz wanna post it regularly bahx.. mayb? haha... hmm.. well school reopen and school holidays time... so much thing happen to me till I nearly breakdown.. well.. i would say things dun go the way we always want to... it fated? or shld i say i m so weak tt i didnt change my destiny? after from falling down in my path.. i took kinda long time to stand up.. nearly went crazy den.. after tt.. bf went ns? i working and studying without stopping till i cant take it and begain to fall sick.. well? dunnoo... bt just feeling nothing ... was hurt once before so now.. towards the surrounding wadeva happen i still can take it bahx.. now the most happiest thing i am waiting for is my guinea pig to give birth.. heexx.. hurray... hope i can afford their expenses though.. got to go find job le... after my test later on will be HOLIDAY!!! need to go workout to slim down getiing fatter and fatter... Den going buy those beauty products tt i am selling.. to try see whether effective or not :P dear dear and nowell say be my modelwahhahaha.... hmm... well tmr anniversary... where am i going??? hmm.. birdpark? wildwild wet? still deciding.. lolz... so fan bout those things... why is money so import? haix...
Ps: I do love u.. as much as u do..
I miss your beautiful smile ... 10:39 PM
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