?? really really confused.. wondering am i lyking the correct person? juz knew him nt long ago bt hav some feeling for him cox of some incidents... bt after ytd nitze.. i was wondering.. do i really lyk him or am i juz want to divert my attention away from another him? if its so den i am really bad.. bt if its nt wad am i going to do next?? ytd my frien told me tt i shld 4gt bout it.. and i agree wif him... cox i hav no guts at all to express my feelings to any guy i lyk b4.. I had always been a failure... A failure hu hate to fail... i m scared i m afraid.. i m afraid of rejection & the change in our friendship.. Moz of the times I am wiling to remain juz friend wif the person i lyk.. i would hide it inside my heart.. even maybe by coincidence the person found out my feelings for him.. he would too keep quiet.. cox thiz sensitive matter wld juz spoil the friendship between both of us.. And if really it does i will break down... Coz i dun hav any energy to make me overcome from tiz type of situation... after i lost my 1st ever best friend... Friendship to me is important..

So wad am i actually supposed to do? or shld i juz forget bout all thiz things & move forward? honestly, i hope to do so.. bt i cant... i seriously juz cant do it.. coz... it juz surface out of my mind from no where... I am juz too tired to continue anymore.. mayb its time for me to sought it through.. & maybe I would express my feeling for thiz time round..

haix... dunno whtr shld i take leave or not on 24 jan leh... coz i will be having chalet on the day b4.. so will b staying overnight. haix.. bt if i didn't take leave early in the morning i muz wake up leh.. =.= lyk tt nt gd lo.. v. rush.. or shld i juz take 3 hr time leave?? coz if nt.. On jan i will be losing $135 coz of nt wrking leh... i thnk lose $90 enuf le bah.. ok... i decide le.. i am goin to take 3hrs timeleave on 24 jan... heex... lyk tt no deduct $$ liao.. HURRAY...

plus... my uncle.. agree to help me take my chalet den.. yay.. lyk tt i dun need to pay too much.. heex... haix... after wrking den i realize tt i gt alot of thngs tt i wanted to buy & do.. heex.. nvm.. in tt case i wrk harder lo.. =p lalalala

hope tt january would be soon.... heex...

hmm... lalala.. went shopping ytd... buy 100 plus tops for juz $70.50.. cheap sia... luckily he gt the discount tickets... ( wanna knw hu is he? lalala.. secret too bad.. =p) hmmm... so happy sia.. 1st time i spent so much on buying clothes... =p but worth it... heex... he himself oso bought a few clothes... both of us together buy 200plus clothes but only pay 100 plus... heex... hmm... nxt shopping will be when both of us get pay... den will go for lala shopping.. heex.. hmm.. ytd.. while waiting for him.. two gals approach me.. they say looking for new faces for advertisement.. I rejected but in the end still lose to their pity faces then gav them my contact.. =.= haiz.. today the person call ask me go down for appointment.. dunno shld i go or nt sia.. =.=

heeex... i went skating on sat... so nice sia.... tt day juz so happen tt a gal bday.. den they release 'snow'... so romantic sia.. haix.. no bf to go wif...=x hahah.. bt it was really nice.... hmmm... den as usual i fall again... 2 times.. =.= bt nvm it was stil v. fun... towards the end of my skate.. i ask my friends... to let me have a feel of 'speed skate' (bt is slower den tt la.. heex. cox i scare)... and it was soo nice lo.. the breeze on my face... haix.. hw i hope i can faster master my skating.. den can skate lyk my friendz.. heex.. i will jia you de.. 23/12/06 going skate again... lalala... die i thnk i devoted to it le.. haha.. bt no choice.. cox is a dream of mine when i was young.. heex.... i will jia you de...

PS: lalala.. tiz holiday gt alot of things to learn... lalala~ =x

O'level finish le.. now i wrking at my uncle company as clerk..:p hmmm.. smtimes is tiring la.. bt stil quite ok.. cox i am always online.. heexx..den can eat snake a little bit.. heex... eh.. so far.. after O'lvl only go out 3 times... 1 time wif my sis and her friends.. 1 time wif gilbert they all.. last bt not least is ms sunarti wedding wif the class.. heeeex...

Went skating wif my sis they all is fun...gt 1 guy called mark.. my sis frien la.. he super pro in skating sia... as u guyz knw i am quite heavy de lo... den he is behind my back when skating... by right.. he should fall with me when i fall de lo.. At the moment when i fall i was thinking... sure very. embarressed de lo.. hw I knw that he nvr even fall and still catch on to me to prevent me from falling... heex.. Luckily got him if not haix. cant imagine my situation.. haha... he is younger then me by 1.. if not i will fall for him lo.. :x haha.. juz kiding la.. Hmm.. den tt day.. gt splash by ice.. whole jean was wet lo... bcox of mark and his frien sia.. make me lyk xiao mei mei wet pants lyk tt..=.= hmmm... so now my teacher for skating and blading is him.. heex..no need to pay fee de wor... gd hor?... haha...

Then the other day went cycling wif gilbert they all... kai ting wif the coaching by G finally knw hw to cycle le.. haha.. bt still not v. gd at it.. hmm... den i compete cycling wif G 2 times.. 2 times also lose..=.= Nw i knw the technique liao.. coz sitting on bike, bike heavier den will be slower... stand up and ride den faster heex... hmmm.. talk bout G... he also my teacher.. heex.. he is my swimming teacher.. den last time is my pool&billard teacher..:P thnk muz ask him re-teach me again.. coz i super lousy at it... =.=....

hmmmmmmm........ my next outing coming le... Tiz saturday... hurray... heex.. its skating... :)