Thursday, July 31, 2008
we might seems to be fated to be together after all those things we have been through. Yet at the same time looking back we should know that we are not mend to be together. We had chosen the wrong path to go to... when we first thought it was right. but we were wrong so wrong.. none of us would ever expect to be hurt so badly.. i really dunno what the point of us continuing when what we do is just hurting each other more and more.. pushing each other to the end of the world. is it worth it? we dunno .. just that none of us.. could really bare to take the first step to destroy what we had built up over the years. None of us want to completely destroyed everything... We know we love each other.. we know we need each other... just that we always does it in a wrong way... I am so tired... I love you yet i dun wish to hurt...I want to end.. yet I really dunno how should I do it.. I am lost in my own world from the day I know u.. without u.. I dunno whether am i still able to continue to be brave and strong.. maybe in the end you will just turn to be part of my memory.. and me too... but at that point of time... i believe there is a moment where both of us really thought that we would be able to continue till the rest and end of our life.. but now.. it doesn't really seems so..
We are from different world we have different mindset... we are just not suitable for each other.. maybe till one day we look back we might regret .. that actually they are all our foolish act...
will we?
At moment did you think of me? I begain to realise that i may not be what you always told me that I am suppose to be.. I am no longer the center of your attention and somehow or rather whether you admit or deny you begain not able to love me as before.... no matter what reason you have... me too...... both of us are just drifting apart.. just that wenever admit it.. we keep telling ourself we still love each other like we first do... however it was just merely a lie that we say.... Things done... can never be undone.... the hurt we gave each other can never be mend.... the things that we did ... there isn't any use of regreting....
U used to say.. I will love you no matter what you are, who you are or what you going to become... but now? people do change.. i told you i won't... I really did not till those incident happens.... As i change i hurt you and as i hurt you the love and comprimises you used to give had no longer been the same...
I used to say I will love you no matter what other say.... and i still do.. just that the portion of love was no longer the same... i couldn't no matter how hard I had tried i just couldn't bring it back... I am just so hurt.. so hurt that i could not forget...
Now.. the temper that i had try to change is not because i saw you change or i had already let go the past.. it just that i dun wish to quarrel anymore dun wish to see those cruel things you will do to me or I will do to you.. don't wish to see any of us breakdown.. While i am doing so..... i am not hoping... i am just letting it to go dry..... there will be just one single thing that will trigger this relationship and both of us will let go.... we were just merely unknowingly waiting for this day to come... unless a miracle happen if not... i really dunno how are we going back to the past............
deardear......... i miss u.... the old u the old times... u didnt know u are taking chun footsteps... juz that this timeround you do things that hurt me more as compare to him............
will our ending be goodbye or happily ever after?
I miss your beautiful smile ... 10:13 AM
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It's making me very sick.
I really miss you ...
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