haix.. die le lah.. my statistic attendance is below 85%... dunno can take the exam or not.. ltr gt to c my lecturer cox some attendance is due to the machine problem lo...!!! =.= haix... cannt take the exam i cfm cry lo .... :( die le lo.. ltr cannt take how??? !! how?? haix.. PRAY HARD TT NOTHING WILL HAPPEN BAHX... from today onwards cannot skip lessons liao.. strictly nononono NONONONONO!!!!!!!

hmmm... saturday and sunday went to celebrate shirley bday party wif her... well on sat pple present were... me, nowell, shirley, don, shi qi, lousis, shi han.. well we went talok blangah safra for pool, arcade and swing.... hmm.. SWING!!! well i hav not touch it since i was 13 if i not wrong.. how i long ot sit on it again.. is damm nice lo.. swing till as high as i could.. it has been so long since i had actually laugh deep from my heart.. the feeling of me swinging high up there is something i dunno how to use words to describe.. i juz simply love it.... receive a small little present from him.. a lolipop.. well that day went out for lunch i juz say i was juz kidding about wanting a lolipop and he actually rem and bought 1 for me .. 1 for baobei... went to arcade to play the 'plush toys catcher' .. hmm.. well manage to catch 2 couples of mickey and minnie.... but my winnie the pooh cannot catch.. hiax.. quite a disappointment cox the pooh really v. cute!!!! can pull de... but is ok la.. i know he tried his best.. and spent alot of $$ on jux wanted to catch the pooh for me... after our pool we went to tiong bahru for dinner .. wanted to eat rajah inn but it's close.. so went for KFC... after dinner the guyz went to buy birthday cake for her.. and we eat and.... use it to do facial on her face... :P heex... was tiring day.... however was really fun...

sunday.. people went were... me, nowell, shirley, don , kenneth , yaoxing, lousis , and 1 more i forgt his name liao.. queensway de.. ;p well actually plan to watch movie but in the end our birthday gal wanted to skate so we went skating~~~ hmm.. haix.. wear skirt ytd den hav to spent $8 to buy a short.. =.= but it so coincidence to buy a short tt is of same design as my tube so is still kinda ok la.. ;p hmm.. fall down once due to unbalance.. but i actually find that my skating skills did improve... cox i can turn myself instead of going to the corner to hold the rails and turn.. ;p heex.. hmm.. his leg wasnt suitable to wear the skating shoes and causes some parts of the skin come out.. den he couldnt skate or really walk properly at 1st.. he fall and hurt oso.. den i ask him to go and rest.. but he was damm stubborn la!!! ask him go rest dun wan to listen de.. die oso wan to pei me.. ... hmm hav a small comotion wif nowell but after tt was ok liao... =.=
hmm.. saw my POOH!!! again.. =.= once at bugis another time at jurong east.. tried again but didnt manage to catch it.. ;( haix.. he spent lotsa $$ juz to catch that for me lo.. was touch .. but really a silly guy oso... =.= ;p although didnt catch it in the end but knew that he tried his best.. mayb me and tt pooh is juz not fated bahx... :(

conclusion this 2 days was fun.. I AM REALLY HAPPY!!! especially on sat.. :)

haix.. hmm.. after tt day.. i wad oso tell him liao... thigs tt i dun lyk.. things tt i will not tolerate.. he sya he is willing to change.... ytd... he kneel down... cox i am angry... i m lyk damm shock la.. is lyk.. really scared me lo... the reason he kneel down wasnt bcox the things he did tt day was bcox i m angry.. wif him.. cox he sya me me dunno wad.. den i was lyk kiddin bt he kneel down.. i lyk stun.. is lyk to me... kneeling down take pride lo.. and is at bustop leh.. so many pple.. he really started to change bt i dunno how long he can stay in tt way.. chating wif some of my frienx.. some say i gulible some say i stubborn... some sa i bu jian guan cai bu liu lei..

i nt really tt.. bt... haix.. dunno hw to explain.. hope he wun disappoint me wif my trust in him bahx.. if nt i also bwg le.. haix...

tmr marketing bt i no mood study if i flung it will die lo.. :( i dun wanna flung it.. exam an test are v.impt to me de lo.. :(

....... dun break my heart again.. when i put my trust in u... if not.. dun blame me for forgetting u.. 4 being juz a stranger...

wad the........he know tt i blog tix thing sia.. i really wanted to go and dig a hole to hide lo.. so pai seh lo.. =.='''' 1st time in my life so pai seh... =.='''' really wanted to faint liao.. hiax...

hmmm... really kena hurt after i know wad he do tt day lo.. is lyk.... unfaithful action.. shirley and nowell keep helping him.. ask me gav him 1 last chance bt i really no more courage to gav e lo.. juz scare tt it will hurt myself 1 more time.. u know?? haix.. sometimes really hate my self for being so undecisive.. i really dunno wad i should do or wad..

he really dun understand me welll.. he really hurt me hard.... and i really dunno tt.. is he true about me or not??? really dunoo... ijuz dun wanna get hurt again.... gaving him a chance is lyktaking a risk... honestly tix time round the mistake he made was way too big le.. hard to forgive.. really..

:(

hmmm.. ytd went for my astronomy orientation camp... at 1st was lyk so reluctant to play the games... and my grp was lyk unfamiliar wif each other.. slowly we warm up... my grp consist of 5 guyz and 2 gals.. including me.. guyz we hav.. melvin, jia xin, jingsheng,wijaia,lenard.. gals r xanthy and me.. sorry if i misspell ur name.. lolx... hmm... well the part tt really make us united was playing the folding the newspaper... 9 of us including the OGL squeeze into a small piece of newspaper.. all hugging each other.. LOL... tix was the 1st time i hug guyz so tightly lo and kena hug by guyz so tightly.....=.= cox cannt fall out of the newspaper den we hav to hugs each other damm tight.. LOL... den we manage to get champion for tt section.. honestly my grp OGL is a v.wei da guy lo.. his name is alan.. the reason i say he is wei da is becox.. His LEG was INJURE BUT HE PARTICIPATE FULLY IN THE GAMES... this made me look up upon him... really a v. nic eguy.. today saw his leg gt lotsa cut and bruise feel pity for him.. actually he dun nd participate de since he leg was injured bt he still does.. overall the camp was a nice 1.. i mange to look at mars.. jupiter and saggitarus stars... heex... will get to learn more for the upcoming events.. :)

well.. ytd wasnt tt nice for me.. oc x lyk i fa xiao jie pi qi.. bt is lyk he say thngs nvr do lo.. i waited whole day 4 his sms cand call bt he didnt.. all is i do de lo.. i thnk.. mayb we r from different world bahx.. thngs he do sometimes id really not according to wad i wan or lyk.. he wasnt those of auto guy or guy tt can gav me security de... to me.. alotsa thngs is impt in order to b my bf.. u all may say i troublesome wadeva.. bt is me.. my criteria for my bf.. well.. i dun deny tt i did fall for him some how or rather.. but nt deeply.. lyk 30-40%??? hmm.. so thnk will reject him and get myself of it b4 i fallen deeply and hrt myself further.. sometimes thngs doesnt go in the way we thnk.. and i m still uncertain bout his truthfulness to me...

hmmm.. tt day my necklace crystal break.. i told him and he gav me sarcastic tone.. mayb he is joking but it hurts me damm hard.. hmm... now we r lyk strangers oso.. nt enemy bt juz nt close at all anymore.. honeslty given up on him since the last day we met.. cox knew tt is impossible le.. to him now no feeling le.. but i am just sad bout the situation we r in now.. but is ok bahx.. at least once i m close enuff to him...

well.. today went east coast wif ah toot.. hmm.... well did nothing except sitting down near the beach and chatting... well didnt get to cycle.. :( cox he dun wan.. he nt feeling well.. haix nvm nxt time bahx... today he noticed the scar on my hand.. actually i gt lotsa scars everywhr.. due to work and fall down in the past... well.. i m lyk kinda down cox of tt.. bt he cheer me up.. he said something tt warms my heart..: " is ok wad.. tix shows that u r strong.. i will still lyk u even u disfigure..." i shoot back lyk real... he say v. sincerely is real.. honestly.. i got a little bit lyk him.. but till now i dint dare to accept cox i dun lyk him as much as he lyk me .. and i scare will get hurt again by him .. sooner or later.. :( haix.. now still in the process of consideration... :) but wad i can say all this years i know him.. gav a a impression that he is a nice guy.. although i heard lotsa bad things bout him bu t i believe one would change.. :)

hmm... nowadays meet up quite a number of them..(my online friends) went to a few outing and a few lunch wif my online frienz.. well pple whom i had meet up are saint, vespa, dotzzz, Raikage, zdotz, jerlyn, rusted, rinoa_86, jianqiang, blitz, mutalisk, cloud, hamster, BD, grace, blackout , shyboi...

hmm.. losta nice pple i lyk at the same time oso gt a few i dislyk... and really annoy me...
i hav lyk erm.. announce tt some dudes tt i dun lyk.. so future outing gt them i wun attend.. gt me.. i wun let them attend.. ;p eh.. kinda bad lahx..bt hor i ignore them gt reason de.. 1 of the reason for 2 ignore is tt they are arrogant when they are lyk apiece of shit.. to me when u r gd at things u r humble we will look upon u .. when u r just ok or even u are gd at it ... u r arrogant bout tt.. i despise and dislyk u...!!! meet some.. gt despo arnd oso.. depso wif no looks more worse.. hahax.. but nvr i gt my protector..mr saint.. ;p heex....

well.. nxt outing i will attend will be either a bball outing or jerlyn bday... lalala.. heex.. and bball i will only ask those i lyk out.. or those i close wif.. which means my irc clique lahx.. ;p
honestly.. irc when i 1st use it i tot there r only despo arnd and no true friends.. however my years inside irc proved me wrng.. indeed there r lotsa despo arnd but at the same time.. i knw a number of gd friends arnd too.. . : )

haix.. june is coming and so many pple bday.. jer, well, mum, JQ, cowen, auntie.. 6 sia... wallet will broke... i thnk i mux on diet from now onwards liao... =.=''''