Thursday, September 03, 2009
I am so damm stress about it.. really.... deardear cannot take it... neither can I...He keep in contact with his family members just to get extra money...
I mean at first it is totally nothing wrong with going back to his house...
I always thought... But no... I finally realised that his family members are givign him alot of stress.. Forcing him in one way or another... Before anything happen.. I thought is always fine... but now.. strictly no.. not at all... I am sick and tired of it... I don't know who had force him... or with what... But ya... Seriously...though we are poor... We are in need of money... but anything cannot be compare to him... To me he is the most important one... I cannot afford to lose him... Leaving him alone at the stress area result to nothing but him giving stress to me...
You know just by him going back to his own house... Just by him contacting with his parents... I receive nothing but crap you know? Stress!!! I know his motive... He is trying hard... He have his reason to stay... Last week... I still can endure and thought everything should be quite fine... Is ok de... nothing de... but now!!! hell no ok!!!!
I don't know how I can deliver this message to him that...
HE IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN MONEY! I SERIOUSLY DON'T NEED HIM TO GET MONEY FROM HIS PARENTS!!!!! REALLY DON'T NEED!!! AND THATS IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
this whole situation is getting out of control... I know he feel very difficult.. I know he cannot take it anymore... But I can't let him have his way.. I mean is totally not correct...
Being close with his parents just to get money is wrong already...
Because of money parents on upperhand keep forcing him nagging at him and etc is more wrong...
Because of that spoil our relationship is wrong wrong wrong wrong wrong la.. =.=
I mean I am nuts if I am going to let this continue you know? How could I? Cannot loh... these things are like sooo important to me............ Honestly.. Is my HTB that is important to me.... I mean... he will go crazy anytime... I don't want... I rather $2 share one plate of chicken rice... That all... Enough le... I mean really... ok? From now on... I only want him to be by my side 24/7.. though yes I am hurt badly... But who ask me love him so much... Most important thing now is to clear everything... And let him happy...
about me? Next time then say bahx...... that 1 is up to him what to do.........
I only hope... matter can solve today.... I don't want anymore stress le... I cannot take it..... I dun want to end up in IMH sia=.=
I love you, my HTB.... I really do......................
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:04 PM
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