Friday, September 11, 2009
hmm...i duno...
what is the meaning of love?
they say if i find dear first...
forever i will be under his control...
and will be taken forgranted...
but thats not love isnt it?
I mean ....
love doesnt matter who is under who...
or should i say both is equally important...
we have our own strength and weakness..
isnt it?
Why do we have to count and stuff?
I dunno...
I felt lost...
confused...
scare...
together 2years 2months...
I would say ....
married for 2years 2 months will be more appropriate...
because we have been staying together...
telling me to let go this r/s....
is totally impossible...
i wonder...
how he could?
or I guess he never too..
just stress...
we manage to sms...
as i send wrong msg to him...
and hell...
he know everything that I am thinking...
after that i ask him out to meet and etc..
though he reply is extremely attitude i would say...
but he is just vending his anger...
so i am ok...
at least he replied me... :)
he is not that heartles afterall...
i am sure...
i am still something inside his heart...
Many say i am being stupid...
Many say he is a jerk and etc...
ya maybe?
i agree too...
but nevertheless...
he is the one i chose to go down my life with...
blinded by love?
yes maybe?
because to me..
yes he is not worth it...
but my heart say he worth...
than anything else...
i can even use my life to exchange it with...
I feel fortunate...
or at least...
to myself...
at least in my heart I trust...
if not....
this r/s story might really end..
despite whatever he had done...
despite those hurtful words he had said...
i am hurt definitely...
heart shattered...
but well...
i believe that is not him...
not the one i known for years...
not the one i love....
he is just hiding...
making himself stronger...
pushing everyone away...
just like last time...
yes...
you guyz might think I am naive...
to believe what i am thinking...
but well...
that is what I call love...
I love him...
that why i sacrifice...
i love him...
that why i stay even when i am hurt...
i love him...
that why i never agree to others...
i love him...
that why i am holding on tight despite him asking me to let go...
my piggy jiejie....
do you know...
how much i actually love you?
do you know?
do you know the girl you had love for the past 2years is feeling miserable now...
because you are keep pushing her away...
your promise to change might have gone...
your feeling might have gone...
but she is still there...
is actually very simple to make her go away...
just kill her with a knife..
she will graduallly appreciate that...
to be honest....
i seriously rather you kill me or i die than going through what i am going through now....
for love i trust..
for love i forgive..
for love i stay...
for love i am holding on..
boy you know? how much i miss you now? how much i long to kiss and hug you?
i am not obessed about you or went crazy about you...
is just that i love you...
way too much...
till the extent...
i love you more than myself...............
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:55 PM
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