Tuesday, September 08, 2009
to love someone....is to let go?
LOLX...
that is totally bullshit....
I never let you go...
never will...
because you will be in my heart...
forever... :)
But now...
my heart is dead...
truly dead...
whatever it is...
I will face myself...
Dun worry...
Like you say is my own business...
If i were to die...
then ok...
by all means...
is ok...
Doesnt matter anymore...
today i realise...
whatever you have said in the past...
every single thing...
is just dream...
and now i am awake...
your love...
to me...
doesnt and wont matter anymore...
for those silly things I have done for you.....
i wont regret...
because I put in effort and love...
alot alot...
but now.......
wont le...
i will never ever do all these stuff anymore......
you said those 2 years wasnt meaningless and stuff...
but ha.....
don...
from now i will only call you don...
the 2yrs if really the happiest days in your life...
you wont say all these to me...
whatever that I had heard from you today...
from your mouth...
i believe is from your heart...
I dont matter to you at all...
since that the case..
you dont want to treasure me...
dont want to cherish me..
ok...
fine..
someone else would..
our 070707 end....
story mark with a fullstop...
blogskin and stuff never change...
you dont misunderstand...
is not for you...
is for the piggy jie jie... my deardear...
the one I had love before with my heart,body,mind,spirit and soul....
you want do what i cannot do anything...
you want to destroy yourself...
then up to you....
i cant do anything...
i wont do anything...
i dont want to care anymore...
you want you take good care of yourself...
you dont want then i cant help...
if your parents doesnt care...
if you dont care...
or you get a gf tt doesnt care then up to u...
is ur fate...
ur life...
not mine...
i will only say once...
take good care of yourself..
work time becareful..
dun get hurt...
eat and slp in regular manner...
game can play...
but got limit...
the rest...
is up to..
now your EX- laopo...
leave le...
k?
I walk out of your world totally...
dont worry...
I wont go bother you anymore...
I wont text anyone...
I wont even care...
:)
what you want..
you said on phone..
i grant your wish...
i will never ever appear infront of you anymore..
i will not disappear..
bt i will vanish from your world totally...
whatever happen..
i will face myself..
i dont need you to be by my side...
dont tell me you will be by my side..
i am naive...
to actually believe...
believe eternity...
believe that there is you forever...
believe this lifetime and many more....
you will always stay by my side...
bu li bu qi...
to believe that you love me...
believe that i am the most important thing in your life..
your everything...
no...
:)
I AM NOT :)
but is ok...
it doesnt matter anymore...
for what you have done..
is enough le...
this relationship...
yes 2years 2months only...
but infact we got tgt for 2 and a half years...
This period... i learn alot...
i learn what is love...
how to love..
and receive love...
but what i learn most is...
i am too naive that there is tian chang di jiu...
i am too naive to believe every single thing you say...
even if they seem so impossible..
i learn...
i learn what the meaning of getting hurt...
i learn..
i learn what the meaning of pian ti ling shang...
i learn...
i learn what is stupidity...
I never regret to love you...
never regret for everything i have done...
but trust me......
if time go back...
i were to be able to choose again..
i wont give you a chance to show me what is love..
because in the end i left with hurt...
is ok...
everyone has to grow and learn...
at least i learn something...
at least i saw the true side of you...
at least...
thanks to you...
i will never ever believe in love anymore...
i wont...
is ok.....
i dont deny...
2years..
is the happiest thing in my life...
because i truly love you...
although two years i gone through so many things...
nearly end my life...
but the sweet memories will stay...
in my heart...
forever...
the hurtful stuff will never fade also...
never will... :)
we shouldnt have be together...
i shouldnt have give you chance...
because..
we are not suitable..
we are from 2 different world...
we got nothing in common...
i said before...
but so?
no use.. :)
what done can never be undone...
since...
that day i agree to be your girlfriend...
I have never ever think that i will regret...
even what happen now...
i still wont regret...
because i chose it...
i chose to be your girlfriend.
i chose you to be my boyfriend...
so there is no one i can blame..
except myself...
for believe in your eternity...
for belive in true love forever...
but now no le...
winnie tan hwee khim has grown up...
she is no longer a girl...
she is a woman le...
she wont do all these stuff...
she wont care anymore..
:) If i am going to leave this world...
I dont want you to shed a tear...
not a single one...
not because i dont want you sad...
because...
you are not fit...
you are not fit to cry...
Lim ma don..
i am telling you now...
"AI WO ZHI SHI NI KAI KOU DE WAN XIAO"
the next girl you were to take as your girlfriend...
you better be awake and dont hurt people...
you better be...
dont think people treat you good...
love you and etc...
is natural..
and took it forgranted...
it is not a must...
but nevertheless everything lies with you...
i am not your who..
and i am not going to care at all :)
ok...
I hereby announce...
I WINNIE TAN HWEE KHIM HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH LIM MA DON...
WHATEVER HAPPEN TO ME IS NONE OF HIS BUSINESS..
WHATEVER HAPPEN TO HIM IS NONE OF MY BUSINESS...
WE ARE NO LONGER COUPLE....
WE HAD BREAKUP~ ^^
there is nothing to be sad about...
I should be happy...
at least i dont need to suffer anymore...
i dont need to face and believe and survive in lies anymore..
you dont worth my love...
you dont..
:)
but well i never regret loving you too..
eventhough yes you are not worth it...
that all ...
bye deardear.... my piggy jie jie...
i bidding goodbye to you...
the one i love most in my life...
more than myself...
you had gone and disappear..
now is my turn...
i miss you ..
i love you...
but it will only be kept in my heart...
PIGGY JIE JIE, deardear!!! LAOGONG LAOGONG LAOGONG LAOGONG LAOGONG LAOGONG LAOGONG WO AI NI!!!!
ZHEN DE ZHEN DE HEN AI HEN AI NI!!!
but now... i am leaving le..
BYEBYE!!!!!!!!!!
SORRY!!!
BUT I WONT AND NOT GOING TO KEEP THE PROMISE ANYMORE...
I WILL NEVER EVER STAY BY YOUR SIDE ANYMORE...
I AM NOT THE ONE..
NEITHER ARE YOU...
BYE.
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:02 AM
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