Wednesday, September 09, 2009
its been going 2 days since we last contacted...I am scared...
to face everything alone...
yet i have to do it...
he is no longer with me.. anymore? i suppose?
I need him...
His support...
I read something and it says...
"let him see the world and believe that after he see the world he will come back to your arms"
my sentence would be...
"he saw the world and decided not to come back anymore"
everyone tell me...
if he love you...
one day he will come back for you...
i used to at least maybe believe that...
he just need to sort thing out..
eventually he will come back and explain to me...
he just need sometimes alone...
but after tuesday....
those words he said to me....
those tones....
i have no confident at all.....
its seems that this r/s had already mark a fullstop...
i remember before i agree to be LMD's gf...
he said...
I will treasure you and cherish you like one ever did...
I will not be like them and neglect your feelings...
I will let you be the happiest woman in the world...
I will never let you tear...
I will never cheat on you....
I will never ever............
let you go.............
these sentences....
keep appearing in my mind..........
but that was just..........
that was just..........
what he said.........
he did it.....
but the opposite...........
the opposite...........
for him treating me like this....
I only got 2 idea on why...
1) He just need sometimes alone now.... trust that he do love me....
2) He just dont want to be with me... he don't love me anymore.......
Is cruel to face the fact....
Reality is always cruel.....
Face the fact that he leave me....
he force me to leave...
he want me to leave......
imagine........
the one you love most tell you...
I dont want to see you...
Never want to see you again....
Even after a decade i also dont want to see you.....
imagine.......
you forgive him........
you forgive whatever he had done that hurt you......
he beg you to stay....
you stay....
and now...
he ask you to leave......
i don't know...
i really don't know...
which to believe in....
the angel htb....
or the devil don?
i am heartbroken...
heart dead....
i am being stabbed...
all over my overheart, body and soul.....
does he know?
does he care?
he said before...
every single night he is crying when i am not with him.....
even when he say break....
what about now?
also the same?
Am i being miss?
every single second?
I wonder......
I love you is true?
or
I dont want be with you is true?
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:14 PM
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