Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Now then i found out that.. ytd i post.... but i did not say that it is our anniversary...1year 3 months.... ^^
But sad to say there is nothing to say about it....
no celebration not even the feeling of love is there.....
is it NS fault? Me or him?
quarreling the whole day....
See and feel the messages that do not mean anything.....
So what is love about????
I keep trying but no outcome....
I keep unbear to let go but what I get is hurting me more and more....
What is the definition of love? Till now I still dunno...
I watched panted skin.....
I saw vicky love for his husband...
That is really call love..
No possesion...
No asking for return..
And just giving to hope that he will be happy....
I also want to do that.....
My love for him is like that....
I do everything hope that he is happy....
But after that I changed...
Become unreasonable and demanding?
Is it my fault? I would only say I am too tired that why?
I still do everything for the sake of him...
But he didn't...
He give in..
But never care for me...
My feelings...
Maybe my dear... I neglected yours...
But now is too late to say who right who wrong......
I only wish to give him the best now.....
Once I feel that he is able to live on his own...
I will leave quietly...
Maybe to fulfil my young wish?
Go overseas to study or work......
I want to leave him.. quietly and to a place I cant go and find him neither can he........
Maybe this is the best for us.......
A call for me become something I have to demand for....
During call time...
I love you and all the others nice words...
Become what I need to wish for...
Is love suppose to be like this?
I dunno........
I feel so empty...
I am picturing now... He kneel down infront of me know without me saying.. And tell me that all along he was wrong... But you know what my feeling? So what in the end he knew and tell me that he is going to change? Its too little too late..... By giving just another chance is just repeating the history again and again.......
I don't want my whole life living in this situation...
Though I seriously love... More than anything.. Include my life....
But i guess.. like all my previous post... We are not mend to be...
You know during 6th of october...
1 day before anniversary...
the 1 gift i gave to him...
the bottle broke..
The words i record in the toy for him went missing...
All these happen infront of me...
As all the things are with me...
Maybe it the destiny telling me...
You should end winnie....
tears flows down my cheeks... the feeling inside my heart at this very moment do you know any of them??
I miss your beautiful smile ... 1:19 AM
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