Friday, October 10, 2008
today is the 2nd day.. i nv really slp... take a nap for round 3hours jiu wke up le... that pig.. confirm still sleeping as usual.. dun need say....... maybe better off for him... nobody will wake him up..... ytd he msg me.... say that he love me..... he say that everything all along he had lied to me... you know what? he dunnid to stay in at all but he volunteer.....He wanted to go out with his friends all along.. just waiting for time... all these while he is just planning me to let him go yet at the same time he cheated my feelings... he took me forgranted HAHAHAHA.. what a joke! TO ME... i had been so foolish doing all sought of stupid things for him....... he just dunno how much he hurt me..... he just dunno how I feel... i dunnid his care.... really i die also dun wan him to know.... really....hahaha..... I think mostly i will live only for a week? maybe bahx.. my hands are dam pain... dunno wad happen inside also... but v.v.v pain... ytd i saw his msg.. i cry.. my whole fain keep trembling.. my eyeys damm pain.. nearly go blind... i use my hands to force it to stop.... my chest... the nerve pull again oso...... but all these pain... to me no feeling..... really no... its nothing as compare to the hurt he give me.........
i told him... i won't commit suicide..... i will just dun eat.. but i didnt told him....... not i dun wan to eat.. just no appetite..... I dun wan to open my mouth and talk also........ v.v.v.tired...........
i just wanna leave quietly..... but i dun wan him to care..... wad the point of caring about whether i will die or not..... wads the point to care whether i live normally not.... cause i wun...... i am no lnger the winnie le...... i won't turn back..... you care for me not.. i dun care and dunnid and i didnt ask from you also.... i really let you go........ cause i dun wan you.. no energy to keep you also..
ytd.... while packing his back.... glasses chips came out due to last time the bottle i gave him.. i guess that day i never clear properly..... i got 2 thinking... should i cut myself? i didnt.... not becox of him..... but becox of sis.... i promised her.... but while i am clearing it.. it accidently cut me... my 2 hands bleed but i dun wan to use plasters.. cox he always wan me to use plaster.. i dun wan....
he wan me to eat.. i dun wan... he wan me to take care of myself ... i dun wan......
YOU KNOW WHAT? AHAHAHAHAHAH... he went to find girls........ ask him go ahead please... fuck off lah......... ahahaha... what am i? SHIT... hahaha... TOY!!!!
I promise not to.. but i cant myself... ahahaha....... please help me to ask him fuck off... thanks...
I miss your beautiful smile ... 6:26 PM
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