Tuesday, October 30, 2007
well.. kinda long nvr update le.. recently had not been good for.. stupid boss and etc.. make me mentally actually breakdown le.. well.. kinda lazy but does not feel like attending lesson which is utterly bad.. well 1st 2 week admit that is sick so i have every reason not to attend.. but yesterday wasnt just dunno why dont feel lyk attending.. lazy, stress and dunno why also./.. well.. my temper keep going off recently which make my bf and sis find me weird and began hard to tolerate that.. i dunno why also but suddenly was too tired and feel like giving up everthing.. don't want anything.. if not for my own good i might not even come to school at all.. just staying home all days and slack that all.. then subsquently maybe even die bahx? i dunno why but just dont feel like living in this world anymore.. i am too tired.. just too tired.. the stress that facing my dad everyday make me go crazy.. the financial matter that my family is going on make me feel really bad.. and times that quarrel with my bf make me locking myself up from everything and anything.. i really goin crazy soon.. no $$, quarrel, annoying and insane dad.. what the hell am i suppose to do?? i wanna study not dont want just simply no mood.. if not i wont be making notes at home.. haix.. i dunno what i can do or anything that i am suppose to do.. well what i can say is that i should WAKE UP AND BUCK UP.. eventhough all these really affect me making me go crazy but i should get concentrated in my studies.. and since my bf is going to start work soon i should also do my part in studying... as he is no longer around to guide me in my studies.. anyway that all.. gambatte ne.. HEREBY I SWEAR ALL THE LESSONS I WILL ATTEND EXCEPT some lecture lah... but till end of this year i will not mc or anything.. even fever also come down.. :p gambatte ne.. heex... .. hope i can do it.. must do it.
I miss your beautiful smile ... 7:11 PM
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
i dunoo... what should i do.. finally he decided to let go.. but both of us can't bear to.. but we jolly well know tt its the best for us.. we love each other.. today he decided to let go after hearing what i say.. both of us cried... after tt we return to normal.. we decided.. on thiz sun after our anniversary we will break up... some things remain some change.. depends.. but what it sure be left is the hurt tt stay in us... am i doing the right thing?
break up is it the only choice for us?.. but he couldnt change.. its hard even he could bt the thngs would happen cox is too minor.. some might thnk wad for minors thngs spoil our r/s.. but if u were me.. u will know.. sometimes too minors tngs happen too many times.. conflict will arouse.. haix.... i dunno i really dunno... i couldnt afford to let go.. bt there isnt any choice for me except to do so.. if not both of us will be hurt even more.. selfish-ly me... i will be even more hurt..
PS I LOVE YOU...
PS I LOVE YOU...
I miss your beautiful smile ... 8:20 AM
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