Friday, August 31, 2007

asking him to change izzit my fault? bt i juz cant take it tt he broke the promise he made again and again.. juz trying to wake up at certain time izzit tt difficult?
i knw there lotsa time i am bad.. there r lotsa time i shout at him, scold him resulted him to lose his face.. bt those who knw me well i am lyk tt.. i dun care bout face.... the more close i am with you the more i will not control my temper.. cox i dun find a need to.... nevertheless.. u r my bf... wad can i do.. i trying to change m temper.. tt y when he wake up late.. i wake up and called him.. nt shouted at him.. bt again and again he disappoint me by getting back to slp.. GUYS!!! may i knw why is ur slpness so important? don't slp will die? why u all can cox of game dun slp.. cannt cox of frien or gf.. wake up at certain time to meet when u PROMISE?? :'( honestly.. keep on gavin me hope and break it.. make me cant take it le.. honestly.. this r/s shld continue or nt i really dunno le.. though he really luv me and of cox i do too.. bt.. haix...
ytd went sch... well was kinda looking for him (chun) bt didnt get to see him.. kinda disappointed.. well no other meaning except to see hw hav he been... till went down to canteen saw wif chris,wei jie they all.. well only gt to see his back.. the entire whole day didnt gewt to c his actual face only side or wad so eva.. cox i oso dun dare to really look at hi.. conclusion.. thngs r still the same... we are stranger.. didnt even greet each othr.. he is still as quiet as eva.. some may ask i hav a bf alrdy why stil wld i care so much bout me and him.. well.. honestly ya.. i dun lyk him alrdy.. bt chun is nt juz any frien.. he is a v.v.v.special frien of mine... cox of the memories we had in the past make me forgetting him is impossible... when i saw him i said i dun wish to see him bt deep in my heart.. bt when the moment i saw him actually i had a mix feeling.. wondering how had he been? fine? wad had he been doing? i luv him honestly.. more than any1 (in the past.. NOW ONLY AS A Frien) hope to be frine once again bahx....
after tt saw lotsa teachers... haha.. all rem my name bt nt joey.. guess i scold students too much much and they rem me le bahx.... hahahxx... den G was late.. well back wif him and all the othrs frien in the same school... bt the feeling was different.. no more running around.. no more teasing... no more gossips.. bt additional of strange feeling... nt lyk the usual way in school... haix.. times pass and we are getting older... thngs change and we are oso changing.. so awkardly bt we hav to accept it...
SIMPLY JUST LOVE THE PAST...
I miss your beautiful smile ... 8:03 PM