Monday, March 26, 2007
him... y? y muz he hurt me over again and again... i lyk him honestly i lyk him.. alot... more than wad i actually tot.. i nvr ask anthng in return at least treat lyk how he treat othrs show me some care can le.. bt.. he leh? did he ever do so? no.. he can ignore me... even though he knw actually he is wrg .. he knw tt i wun ignore.. he knw hw much he mean to me.. bt i dont knw wad m i to him.. mayb.. i dun even mean anythng.. once.. in my entire lifetime.. i actually take up all my courage to tell him about hw i feel.. bt he didnt tell me anythng... of cox i dint mean tt he muz feel for me in the way i feel for him.. bt at least gav me an ans... bt nvr.. and i oso nvr say anythng bt.. he actually dunno tt becox of tix i m hurt.. he ignorance and the 'care' he have given to me... made me really disappointed... whenever he say he will call i will stay up to wait.. i wait till midnitze.. bt he didnt call.. tt nitxe i told him.. in the end juz excuses and excuses... i feel tt i m so blood stupid la.. y do i hav to wait.. he gt cal cal lo.. dun hav.. nvm la.. care soo much for wad? bt i cant.. i cant do it... i really.. really hate him... bt i really detest myself for being soo weak... :'(
u knw wad a guy.. tt time told me tt he lyk me blah blah blah... and i m quite touch cox he waited for me for quite long le.. well tix isnt the 1st time sm1 confess to me.. bt seldom i m touch.. when i actually wanna consider him.... den i knw tt everytng is juz a lie... of cox he didnt say anythng bt wad he do... hurt me too.. soooo... i swear... nvr nvr ever in my lifetime again.. i gav him a chance.. nvr!!!
PS: i will never turn back.. i believe and strongly believe there will a beta guy, will appear soon.. whom luv me and dote me protect me wif all his life.. will appear soon... if i met him.. i will use m life to luv him.....
I miss your beautiful smile ... 7:58 AM